Edible the Incredible ([info]boredominity) wrote,
@ 2008-05-02 23:41:00
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So I saw my BMI today, written down on a sheet at EDP. 20.4 with clothes, which means I'm probably between 55 and 56 kilograms on my own scales (which I no longer own). I guess I'm ok with this. The deal I have with Andrew and Dr Mirpuri is I don't go under 54.5kg. Andrew is going to start weighing me next week, blind. I don't want anyone to weigh me.
I'm so tired and feel quite miserable. I can't even begin to write about what's been going on but it's been hard. I've used up nearly all of my energy.
I wish I could just stop eating right now. It would make everything soft and quiet and fuzzy around the edges. I really want to just slip away.

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[info]cactusmonster
2008-05-03 12:13 pm UTC (link)
Ganbatte! (it means a combination of good luck/try hard/you can do it!)

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[info]expire
2008-05-04 06:06 am UTC (link)
this is where you say to yourself "remember that night with the pineapple? man, i had a blast. with a freakin' *pineapple*. and some awesome friends."

and see that not eating, tempting and habitual as it is, is just a hide-away from everything. including friends and pineapples and nights out because anxiety and stress have consumed you.

you're a beautiful person. fight it.

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